What is it with me and the September blues? I seem to remember this time last year being full of panic attacks and sad, lonely nights. Things are a bit different time around, but this past week has been one of the more difficult I've had in a very long time. There is a laundry list of reasons why things are effecting me the way that they are and I know I just gotta stick my chip up and get through it. The sun will come out tomorrow....or at least in a few months.
I haven't even been back in country a full week and I'm on an overnight bus to northern Peru for 6 days. I am in charge of running an in-service training that I am incredably unprepared for because of the 6 weeks I've spent on medevac. No matter, I've taken lemons and made lemonade. Instead of heading back to Lima on an overnight bus on my birthday like I'm scheduled to do, I'm taking a few vacation days to hit up the supposed nicest beach in Peru. I hope everything works out okay. Last night I woke up at 4 in the morning in a full on panic attack and ran immediately to the bathroom to throw up.
Why this stuff happens to me I'll never know. Hopefully I won't have any problems on the bus tonight. I'm not taking my lap top on my trip, so when I come back a plan to have stories full of happiness and sunshine. But since I'll be out of Lima, even if I'm not elated with joy, at least there will be sunshine.
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Panic Attacks and The Sun will come out Tomorrow...yes, your a Fisher indeed. If any Fisher can get through this I know it's you. Try to take deep breaths, in through your nose out through your mouth...pop on your mp3 player for good measure. Listen to something that puts your mind at ease and your body in full out dance mode. After doing this your lemonade is sure to taste that much sweeter. Enjoy visiting Northern Peru Ali,
I LOVE YOU!
I love you I love you I love you!!!! I hope that was enough to get my message across country/continent lines. I sure hope you're feeling better when you read this, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I hope your weekend is full of sun and funfetti cupcakes and champagne and NAKED TIME!
xoxo
Laura
Ali, you are an amazing woman. I am constantly in awe of your courage and adventurousness. I am so proud of you and I love you so much. Your participation in my wedding was an amazing gift and I am so lucky to have a friend like you. I know you will persevere just as you always do. Know that your family and friends are with you even when you feel alone. Happy Birthday, I am sure you will live it up! Hugs and kisses, if there was a pool anywhere near I'd do a skinny dip for you!
Love,
Amme
hey lady! i am still thinking very fondly of our adventures during your medevac (?), particularly that night in the pool! i can't wait to do it again...and in the meantime, enjoy your mini vacation and have a wonderful birthday! i'm thinking of you, lots of love, kristen
ps sorry i missed your call...try me again soon!
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