Gray skies are gonna clear up?

So yesterday I got pretty bumbed out. The worst Ive felt since my first week. I think a large part of it is the weather. I have always had sunshine in my life. Even the year in spain, which was the longest, coldest winter of my life, was sunny most days of the week. But the sun just does not come out here, ever. It makes me not want to get out of bed in the morning. That combined with the fact that heating is not something that exists. Houses are indoor out door buildings here. The stair way in our house leads from the kitchen to outside with no door or anything. This also leads to massive amounts of flies constantly buzzing around the house. There are usually around 20 or more flies in the living room and god knows how many flies meandering around my lunch and dinner which are left out all day and night. And its still winter and freezing. Ive been told the flies get bad in the summer time. Last time I checked, 20 flies in your living room and 40 more in the kitchen was bad. So even though I am counting down the days till I can step out of the house wearing less than 4 layers of clothing, I am definitely not looking forward to the increase or disease spreading pests in my house.

I finished Harry Potter yesterday, and like I predicted, I was immediately sad afterwards. Not that I didnt like the end, and not to give anything away but, I totally called it. I didnt have any plans yesterday, and knew I needed to get out of the house and not wallow around all day being miserable. I desperately needed a hair cut so I figured yesterday was the perfect day. Where I live is very humid. My hair is long, thin, tangley, dry at the bottom and oily at the top. I shower when I can and there is no mirror in my house. The long hair style that Ive been sporting the last two years just wasnt working. I figured a good shoulder length cut would the most practical. Its easier to wash and dry but I can still throw it up in a pony tail or a french braid on the days I dont shower. So I went into the hair cutting place and told the lady this. What I ended up with is so far from what I told her I wanted. My hair before was a strait across cut, I told her I wanted it a strait, easy to manage style. Yet, some how I ended up with the craziest layers Ive ever had, and its way shorter than I told her. Now I cant even put my hair up in a pony tail without a bunch of hair clip, and a braid is out of t e question. It dosent look bad at all, its actually pretty cute, but I just dont have the means of taking care of it. And when its not done, its looks bad. So that really put a damper on my already gloomy day.

My only comfort yesterday, was going to the gym. Something Ive realized about gyms and Peru, is that Peruvians only go to the gym when they want to loose weight. Well, I guess thats true more for women. My aerobics instructor, whom I shower with every day after class, looked me up and down one day and asked if I wanted to loose weight. I said no, I just like exercising. She seemed to be the only one who understands that I exercise for fun. Word has spread in my little town and at my work that I go to the gym in Lurin and all the women ask me why I go, cause I dont need to loose weight. I get the same response out from the women in my class and many people have flat out asked me how much I weigh. I get out of that question by telling them we dont use Kilos in my country so I dont know. Every one at my gym now knows me and call me by my name. I cant decide if this is a good thing or a bad thing. Yes, it is nice going somewhere where everybody knows me and I have people to chat with. But at the same time, sometimes its nice to go to the gym to escape exactly that and just get in the zone and not have to worry about any one but myself.

I was still feeling a bit down today. I definitely have hit a small bumb in the road and know that Im gonna have to push through this week. I got next week to look forward to so for now I just gotta get through what looks to be rough couple of days.